Week 6

Song of the week- “Again” by Doris Day, very beautiful song and she’s still alive. SHE’S 101 and still looks very good, interesting how time is so cruel or very nice..but mostly an asshole.

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Day 1- Monday was kind of a realization for all of the things we had to do. We met with Cassie pretty early and talked about R Studio, WHICH I FIGURED OUT THANKS TO CASSIE!! and what we needed to be coding and charts we need to be making so I had to get on it. I made an excel sheet of reactions and I’m hoping to have more charts by the end of the week, but I need to read very badly because we don’t have enough sources and the “final” draft of the related works is due by the end of this week. It’s all becoming harder and harder, I thought it would be smooth sailing, but noooo. Oh, well, I need more time, I like my room too much, I still have so much to accomplish. I went to Louisville and Nashville last weekend (will put in picture blog) I am so behind on my pictures, my airdrop for my laptop is not working so that makes everything super difficult. I’ll get it eventually.

Day 2- Ah, meeting days. Same dealio, really early meeting with Mona and Maria. I feel like not much was accomplished but we did look at a survey to see if it made sense before we send it out. I believe it was for the mid study survey for my miscarriage project. Afterwards Cassie and Mona spoke about I have no idea, I was honestly lost, but we did that until it was time for reading group meeting and this time we did not rate any of the paper, one was about 2000’s memes which were progressively dark and disturbing (I will screen shot the “memes” they showed to the participants for the study) The whole paper was sketchy. It proceeded to rain really hard outside and I knew I should have wore my rain boots but we still went to ethos in the rain. After the ethos meeting I went to get lunch and worked on Dedoose until I was staring blankly at the screen and had to move locations a.k.a home.

Day 3- I am so behind on reading but my eyes and brain refuse to take in information. I just need to get into the zone and I could read like 3 articles at a time. I want to have 5 articles read and cited by the end of today.  By the end of the week I want 7 articles read. I failed hard on the reading end, I fizzled myself out really early with the hardcore reading when I should have been taking it easy with a couple articles a week. Yeah, the article thing is not going to happen, something is wrong with my eyes, or my mind or something, my mind will blank when I look at articles. I need sleep, or to just lay down or do something else, I don’t know.

Day 4- Slow slow Thursday. Today was very unproductive even though I wanted it to be. I stared at a paper I was supposed to be wearing but I could not process what was going on. It made me very upset and frustrated with my brain, why couldn’t I just focus. I went for lunch after that, maybe I just needed a breath of air but no I just could not function fro some reason. I made me worry but maybe it was just not my day. We met for our reading meeting and very briefly talked about our paper and after Carla, Cassie and I talked about what we should be writing down for the timelines, I have no idea why we were doing that, I was at lunch and nobody texted me to meet, so I am still lost on that activity. I went home with Katies gold chicken scratch and made some nifty edits on the paper, citations are a different story, I do not remember what all those papers are about so the notes come in handy, thanks for telling us to make notes, they’re a savior.

Day 5- Heyo it’s Friday. Today was the usual Friday meeting and Gustavo and Ray did very well, which makes me nervous now, but I think I’ll be fine. After that I went to get a salad to put my lemon pepper tuna on. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT, a Caesar salad with lemon pepper tuna on it. I headed to ethos for Haleys worship with the older folks, it took forever but when hey finally came we helped with the surveys and left, good luck to them, they were way too nervous, I think it’s going to go very well. I am now sitting here writing this but I need to keep making edits on the paper because the readings we’ve done is not on the ShareLatex and I am truly failing at keeping up with that paper and its stressing me out. I will do that until it I have at least 4 more citations on the paper then I will just stop, I can go back it’s not like its permanent, the other sections are much easier but this section just doesn’t stop. Wish me luck. I went to the GROUPS little poster presentation, and I don’t know if they knew the pictures would look so bad when they are blown up x30 but someone should have told them and they were not dressed the best but hey, they’re beginners and they’re not in the STEM program so I can’t act like I knew any better..actually I did and I dressed really well and my poster looked pretty good not to toot my own horn or anything. I will read articles today and at least write a tiny bit and get something more on the resources page.